one of the few positive things about ocd is that i know if i don't obsess over getting something right, i'll fixate on it way too much later after i've screwed it up somehow. as for stuff i mess up due to general dumbness on my part, it's usually between me and whatever random person is involved on the internets.

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If you don't mind me asking, how is that positive to you? I find that it makes the compulsions even stronger for me. If I fail to carry them out, I feel much worse later.

I learn from most of my mistakes online, though sometimes I forget certain things.

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i just mean it in a "makes me think more efficiently" way. if i'm going to be stuck with insomnia that leaves me staring at the ceiling all night, i may as well use the tine to make plans and such. i do agree that a lot of that time is spent thinking about things that trace back to my annoying compulsions, but i've learned to take the good with the bad.

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I see what you mean now. That does make a lot of sense.

That's what it's about: trying to find some kind of balance amongst all of the chaos.

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I can relate to this!

In the sense of the word, you've ' perfectly' summed up the contention in those three lines. Oh, and thank you for the dedication.

Mistakes are entirely necessary in life so that we may learn from them. Experience is the best teacher, like they say. Since you already know all this, all I can do is agree (again!) .

...I did an all nighter last night writing music. I started with a melody and got so carried away I never got to sleep. I don't regret it though, because it got me so excited I HAD to get it all down. Anyway, I'm still going to reply to your comments, it's just that there's a few other things going on and my brain is severely sleep deprived, so my thoughts aren't going to be the best organised/structured, ect. This is just a heads up that it might be a day or so...

on a personal note, i had a massive fight with that friend of mine i mentioned, so im gunna try and work that out first so it doesn't preoccupy me any longer. anyway, thank you again for the dedication, and it was a pleasure conversing with someone so intelligent and wise. I'm really looking forward to next time. I shall try to make it soon.

All the best!!!!!!!!

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Nothing Is Static

I didn't know you wrote music. That sounds lovely.

There's no hurry! Take your time. Also, take care! I hope everything works out for you.

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P.S. You're welcome. I found the dedication most fitting!

And thank you!

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