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Where Are They Now?

by `TerrorCookie, Jul 8, 2012, 12:58:21 PM
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My internet presence has become very scarce.

I am here right now: Food and Meows.

Sometimes I am here: Love and Meows.

I don't do much else online lately.

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Kind of A New Beginning

by `TerrorCookie, Mar 1, 2011, 5:57:18 AM
Journals / Personal

Hi everyone,

It's been a really long time. A lot has happened since I've been on here last. I kept saying I was going to come back and didn't. I apologize for that.

I removed pretty much everyone from my friends list except for a handful of people. I thought it would be easier to start over that way. I had 20,000 messages in my inbox, and every day I get more and more that I can't keep up with. A lot of the people I removed have probably removed me in the time that I've been inactive anyway.

If I removed you, it doesn't mean I dislike you, and it doesn't mean I won't ever add you again. I just wanted to see who is still on here anymore.

A lot of not-so-good things have happened in the past few years, but some good things have happened as well. I spent an amazing four months with my boyfriend, ~silentpair, who I met on here in 2008. We've been together since. He had to go back home for a while, but he will be here again soon. He's so wonderful.

How is everyone doing?

I cleared my entire inbox to make things easier this time. The last few times I stopped in, I made the mistake of leaving everything in there and feeling overwhelmed by it.

Take care,

~Amber

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Happy Holidays!

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 26, 2009, 10:17 PM

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A New Year!

Hi everyone! :]

I hope everyone enjoyed the holidays.

I've been busy (as usual), but I wanted to stop by. I miss it here. It's so nice to see that mostly everyone is still around. [:

How is everyone doing? How was your holiday?

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Om Nom Nom

Journal Entry: Sat Sep 19, 2009, 3:52 PM

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I have great news!

I'm on vacation from September 21st until October 6th. I actually have time now to catch up more on here. Today I finished reading and responding to the majority of the unread notes that were in my inbox.

Please do me a favour and link me to something new you've created. I won't commit to commenting on everything, but I would love to take a look at everything. :]

I've been working and sleeping mostly. I finally have time to myself again. Things are a bit stressful right now, but I'm not here to complain. I'm happy (thanks to the lovely ~silentpair). I think the worst of it is that I'm losing all my hair. I have half of what I used to have, or less. I think it might be alopecia because they can't find anything wrong with me yet. Otherwise I'm grateful for a lot of things. My job is pretty good for what they pay me and now I have all this free time! There's so much I want to do with it.

How is everyone doing?

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Leaf by Leaf

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 22, 2009, 8:41 PM

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Love

It would be a miracle if I could spend a solid chunk of time here next weekend.

Thinking of you guys. Hang in there and I'll have time to spare. ♥

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Summerdreamer

Journal Entry: Sun May 10, 2009, 10:25 AM

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Checking In

Hey everyone,

First of all, I want to apologize. I said that I was going to post a big journal entry and then I didn't. I hate to make excuses, but it really has been difficult.

I made some commitments here and I didn't follow through with them. I feel bad about that. I hope those individuals can forgive me. There was a contest I meant to help with and never did, and I haven't been posting the Angels with Wings winners every week like I should; I haven't posted any at all. I won myself thanks to the wonderful ~EndlessVox.

I miss you all and I want to resume my activity here. I'm working on it. It won't always been like this. I've adjusted to work very well. I sincerely like my job. There are some little things that bother me there, but upon reflection I realized that I'm very lucky, and especially to be in such a place during a recession of all times. As far as I know they have no desire to let me go. It's stable. The hours are good and things could be much, much worse.

I can't remember the last time I checked the e-mail address that I have posted on my profile here. I have a more personal account that I check way more often. I don't want to post it publicly, and I won't share it with people I'm not familiar with. If you want it, sent me a note. Just don't share it. ♥

There are a lot of notes I have yet to respond to. I don't mean to be rude and I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, but I promise I'll get to them soon.

Personal

I'll let you all know what's going on. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, though. I'm fine, or I will be eventually.

For a while now my grandparents have been getting divorced. I won't say why because it's their own personal business, but for a time it was a war zone here. It's still stressful because I never hear the end of it. My grandpa moved out, however, and it's a bit quieter now. Forty-two years of marriage went down for no good reason. My only sentiment is that if you love someone, you should show it. In a relationship, love is no good if you don't constantly express it. It costs absolutely no money to do that.

As for the worst, Kobe has been put down. I don't want to go into too much detail about it since it happened on Friday and I still haven't accepted it. He wasn't ill or too old. He was perfectly healthy but had a bad temperament. The sad thing is that he loved me even if he struck out at other people, but I couldn't keep him anymore. I'm going leave the blame and guilt and everything else out of it and just say that I miss him, and I would do anything to have him back, even if it made me completely alone because other people were afraid of him.

A Little Positivity

I posted new features. They were all in my inbox and made me smile.

I want to know how you all are doing. That would be the best anyone could do for me right now. Save the 'I'm sorry' comments and just tell me what's new with yourselves. I also want to know what has been going on here! I'm way out of the loop at this point. :o

I have a couple of positive things. It's Mother's Day today (at least in Canada I know it is). Happy Mother's Day to all of you mothers! I wish you all the best and especially to my own mother who I'm lucky to have. And she's all mine, mwahaha! Jen was adopted and isn't deserving (I'm kidding, she wasn't adopted). :0

I'm reading Dragonwyck by Anya Seton right now. It's a beautiful story. The film adaptation stars Gene Tierney as Miranda and Vincent Price as Nicholas. I'm very, very excited to watch it. Hopefully I can wait until I finish the book, but maybe not. :B

I got a new macro lens. My step-dad gave it to me. It's not new, but it's in excellent shape and it works. It says "CANON MACRO LENS EF 100mm 1:2.8 USM". I think that's a good one, but I don't know anything about macro lenses. I noticed that it's hard to get the right aperture. Should I be using a high F number or low F number for things up close? It's nice timing because soon there will be flowers and bugs and I'll be able to use it more. I just need a better flash for it. Any recommendations? Also, are macro rails and extension tubes any good to have? I'm going to make a trip to the camera store at some point. It's just on the other side of the city, so I'm taking my time getting there.

I've been watching The IT Crowd. I finished all three seasons and it's brilliant. I'm also working on The Mighty Boosh. I love that too. I love the amount of awkwardness in British comedy. Most of the stuff in North America doesn't even come close.

Remember I want to hear about you guys! I hope you all have a wonderful week. I think next Monday is a holiday, but I could be wrong.

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Slow

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 28, 2009, 2:13 PM

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Nuuuuuuu

I wanted to get through my messages, but I keep encountering all kinds of errors. Everything is really slow going, too. Is anyone else having trouble?

I've a big journal entry planned. Coming to an inbox near you. Or maybe not. But I'm sure you can find your way. :D

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Busy (Update)

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 12, 2009, 8:58 PM

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Sorry

I've been really busy, sorry. Work leaves me with little personal time and I'm always tired. :/

I'll post a new journal this weekend sometime and I'll try to catch up on messages/notes.

I hope everyone is well. <3

Updates

I won't be very active for a while because I'm having trouble with my computer. It overheated and shut itself off. I don't want to keep it on too much because it might permanently damage my other hardware. I have to take some time to assess what's wrong with it and then I'll see what I can do. It might require a new part or something. Or maybe it just needs to be cleaned. I need my dad to help me with it.

In the meantime, my grandma's letting me borrow her laptop. It's just really awkward to type on.

As for the job, I had an interview today. They called me on Monday. It didn't seem to go very well, and I didn't think I was going to get the job. They said they would make their final decision next Wednesday, so I figured I had a week to suffer before I got the bad news, but that's not the case. They called me today around 4:00 PM to say I got it. I was shocked. I'm so happy to be working again.

I start on Monday. In the meantime, I need to figure out how to fix my computer. I also need to get used to working, so I'll be tired and coming around here less till I get used to that.

So much is going on! :o Thanks to ~silentpair for being so patient, loving, understanding, caring and a million other wonderful things. If it wasn't for him, I would be completely miserable by now. But I'm not. I'm happy and I loveseses him.

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A Decision

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 1, 2009, 9:02 PM

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CSS

Thank you to everyone who voted in my latest polls and took the time to comment on them. I've decided on this CSS for the time being. I know it looks horrible in Internet Explorer (the boxes stretch out too far, and the mini gallery doesn't function), but maybe someday I'll fix that if I feel like it. It looks best in Firefox 3. I could probably get help with it, but right now I'm feeling stubborn. :>

I'd like to thank !JurgenDoe. If it wasn't for him, this CSS wouldn't have been possible at all. I made a few changes of my own to the original, but he did most of the work. Despite his absence from dA, I feel he still deserves the mention.

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wroth

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 1, 2009, 2:35 AM

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Deviousness

Congratulations to `wroth who's this month's Deviousness Award winner!

He's an exceptional human being and a great deviant. Go congratulate him and tell him how awesome he is!

Question

What did you do this weekend?

What is your favourite kind of fish (not to eat)?

News

CREATIVITY Contest

Community Relations Newsletter - February 2009

Power Lines Contest (Deadline: March 16th, 2009)

Black and White Club's Design Contest (Deadline: April 15th, 2009)

See this journal on how to support `StJoan with her AIDS walk and here

`StJoan posted a wonderful CR update about the literature team featuring impressive organization on their part

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Good-Bye

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 26, 2009, 11:48 PM

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Farewell

Rest in peace, `hakubaikou.

_{"I first met `hakubaikou virtually on deviantART and began following her incredible artwork. When deviantART went to Anime Expo in 2008, I invited her to be one of the artists that sat at our booth and she accepted."}

Sleep is Tasty

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 25, 2009, 11:24 PM

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Animal Shelter Needs Help

I would like to draw your attention to ~SeaWhisper's latest journal.

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She doesn't have any donations from government or from anyone. She only lives from what she can gather from selling her paintings and people donations.
This lady was famous, but she resign from luxuries from carer and devoted to lead this shelter. Now she have really tough situation."}

Sorry (Updated)

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 23, 2009, 3:58 PM

Fixed

The problem seems to have fixed itself somehow. I don't know if it's temporary or not, but I'm hoping for the best. Thanks to everyone who offered their advice. :]

Internet Fail

I hadn't planned to update again for a while, sorry. :/

I'm having trouble with my internet and I don't know what's causing it. Every time I try to stream a video online, or music, my internet disconnects. It has been doing this for at least three or four days (no longer than a week).

Does anyone know what might be causing it? I have Windows XP and even though our router is wireless, my connection is grounded.

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Update

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 22, 2009, 10:32 PM

You

How are you doing?

I'm still catching up on comments and replies. However, don't let that stop you from replying to me or commenting on something of mine. I'll be just fine. :)

I have it set so that journals & news aren't being delivered to my inbox, but deviations are. I can handle one or the other, but not both right now. Having the art to look at makes me smile.

If at any point you want me to see a specific journal or news article, sent me a note. Also, if you mention me in a journal or dedicate something to me, please note me as well. I always comment on those, so if I haven't commented, it means I haven't seen it at all. I apologize for seeming rude. :/

I'm trying to find a job right now and that's really stressing me out. Once I get one and get used to it, I'll be better off. That's why I've been somewhat inactive. It's not permanent.

News

Cute Project

Peruse Our Prompts: A New Lit Contest

Invisible Pear PLZ

Now a PLZ!

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Koala Rescue

Firefighters in Australia rescued a koala bear. See the photo here. The bear accepted aid and even held the firefighter's hand. There's also a video updating the matter and a news article.

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So Tired

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 11, 2009, 3:32 PM

Sick

How is everyone?

I haven't been very active here as of late because I've been sick, tired and somewhat busy. I'm still catching up on replies. As soon as I'm done with that, I should be ready to take everything else on again. :o

Do me a favour and link me to three things (on deviantART only) that you want me to see and comment on. It can be a journal entry, a news article, a deviation, etc. If you prefer just linking me to three of your deviations, that would be fine. If you prefer me to look at something that's not yours, that's okay too. Not more than three links, though. :B

Features

1. Heart Stutter by `IrrevocableFate
2. The Secret Word: Prelude by *Almadelmar
3. The Secret Word: Chpt. 1 pt. 1 by *Almadelmar
4. Slipping Away by ~mode-de-vie

Heart Stutter I struggled to breathe in the frigid air as we raced onto the upper-deck, the cold ripping at us as we wove through the crowd. Mama never let go of my hand, though I pleaded with her, “Ma, I’m 17. I’m not a kid anymore.”

“I will not lose you again, Andre,” she turned on her heel so that her crooked nose was nearly pressing against mine. She paid no heed to the shoulders bludgeoning her as people frantically brushed past us; I saw little Marie’s eyes sparkle with that youthful confusion.

“You never lost me Ma,” I said, biting my lip, “I wanted to stay.”

“Jeannette?&#

The Secret Word: PreludeI can't tell you now how I actually ended up at that house. My car broke down, sure, but if you ask someone who believes in such things, they might say it was fate. Me? I think it was just dumb luck. And I'm not even sure that's the right word either.
My partner always used to say "fate likes to take your hand and lead you in a direction. But Lady Luck? She likes to smack you cold until you see what was always in front of you." My partner had a way with words that I never had.
Maybe Lady Luck did take her fist to my car, because I know if I hadn't broke down

The Secret Word: Chpt. 1 pt. 1It was a dark and stormy night.

Really, it was. Too clichéd? It was the kind of night I would expect a wandering pack of zombies to be out and ready to eat my flesh. Windy as hell, raining like...hell. Okay, writing isn't my thing, it was James' job and he was far better, but he isn't here, and I am. There, no more excuses.
I was driving along the 101, BC to Cali, cause I figured there might be more work down there, not cause I had any love for Cali. In fact, I despised the place. But you gotta go where duty calls, and some eccentric rich folks liked th :thumb106466118:

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Jenya's DD

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 5, 2009, 12:42 AM

Congrats!

My sister, Jen (~Jenya88), got her first DD today! She gets a whole journal dedicated to it because she's awesome, like angel food cake + kittens + sparkles kind of awesome.

I'm so happy for her. She worked hard on her emotes.

She's come a long way with her photomanipulations as well. She specializes in eye manipulations, and people have told her to quit doing those, but she enjoys them, so I've been encouraging her to do what makes her the happiest. That goes for everyone. Don't let other people tell you what to do. Also, it's normal to be critical of your work, but don't lose sight of the most important thing: having fun.

Congratulations, Jen!

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Leaving CR

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 3, 2009, 10:45 AM

Good-bye, ^

My volunteer status is now gone. It was my choosing, so please don't harass Danie or anyone else on the admin team.

I realized that it's not for me. Maybe I'll offer a better explanation in the future, but for now I just wanted to get that out.

I do appreciate the opportunity that I was given, though.

I'm not sure if this will cause drama or not, but if it does I'm going to ignore it. Leaving the volunteer team is a positive thing for me. The rest of the volunteers are amazing, hard working and dedicated. I could be those things too if I wanted, but to go on like that I would have to sacrifice things that I realize I cannot do without, like my sanity. The anxiety has been crippling and finally it just went away.

I know some people will be upset about this, but I realize that I can't please everyone, so I accept it.

This doesn't mean that I'm leaving deviantART, however, so please don't get that impression.

Daily Deviations

I still have Daily Deviations scheduled from before I sent in my resignation. There are just two and they will show up on February 4 and February 11, so if you see them, don't be surprised.

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World Cancer Day

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 3, 2009, 1:39 AM

Wednesday

February 4th is World Cancer Day. $Moonbeam13 posted a journal about it. Go have a look!

Daily Deviations

Here are the Daily Deviations I posted in January!

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Mass Content Update

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 1, 2009, 2:57 PM

I Need Your Help

Well, a journal was already made by !DCZed addressing each deviantART Related category in the gallery.

I'm changing the project around a little. I would like for people to read the journal. If you have any questions after, note them to me and I'll be building a FAQ for them. At the end I'll post a news article including the FAQ questions/answers and !DCZed's journal content. I'll also make a journal entry for the FAQ so that I can keep updating it in the future.

!DCZed and *mixdown came up with the idea of a news article that fully explains the deviantART Related gallery and what all its categories mean. If you have any questions or anything in particular that you want explained in the article, please send me a note and let me know. It's important that you note me and not comment with your question/idea here. I'm going to be working on it. If all goes well, I'll be able to release it by the end of this week!

If there's anything else you want addressed in the article, note me. That still goes!

Other Ideas

What else am I up to?

Well, I plan to submit a news article at the end of each month featuring the DDs from that month. Since there are only four for January, I'm going to feature them in a separate journal tomorrow. There's already too much content in this one and I don't want to draw your attention from them.

I plan to start a journal for club listings that connect themselves to the deviantART Related gallery, so if you know if any clubs, please note them to me.

I will add a module to the right of my journal soon and fill it with all kinds of information that relates to CR and the deviantART Related gallery. If there's anything in particular that you want to see there, or if you have a good idea, please note me. I'm not going to list all of the GMs; rather I'll add a link to the list in $Moonbeam13's journal.

I've already added links to the footer of this journal, so please have a look at look at them. If you notice that any of the links are broken, let me know and I'll fix them. As for trivia night, that will still be happening at some point in the future.

Handling miscats will be an ongoing and endless process. :B

It's Sundae, Nom

How is everyone doing? I have some good news. My mom and the rest of my immediate family have arrived back in town today and will be living close to me again. It's nice not having to take a 17-hour bus trip to see them anymore!

My dad bought me a brand new 20" LCD wide screen monitor. It's amazing how much space I have to view things now. I wonder if I should use a different computer to check out CSS-related DDs.

=RosaryOfSighsx made two new stamps for me. :3

^Thiefoworld made a stamp for me as well, which I edited into my last journal a while after I posted it.

^Thiefoworld and `majnouna joined the CR team right at the same time that I did. They're heading up the Comics & Cartoons gallery. They've been doing a great job so far. Go encourage them and give them hugs!

I recently cleared my activity messages. I had far too many and no time to thank for each individual fave, so for the first time (and maybe not the last) I'd like to thank everyone who added my deviations to their faves. I only regret not being able to show my appreciation more personally. I hope everyone understands. I did make an effort of responding to each watch add, though.

I haven't been keeping up with deviations so well either. I've been looking at them, but not commenting so much. If there's anything you want me to comment on, send me a note. It's going to be like that for a while.

deviantART Related Gallery

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Contests, Events and Projects

Featured Guest Chat Event With ^Cedarseed

Portraits of Love - Vector Contest

The deviantMIX Project

February Form Fiesta!

Your Secret Garden Contest!

Official Contest - What Makes You Smile?

DesktopEVOLUTION Feb '09

Other Deviant News

Community Relations Newsletter - January 2009

MN@ Newsletter

Featured Chatrooms - February

Customization features (Vol II)

Fully Featured Online Portfolio Offer

Cupcake Crazy

Editing SOUND with Photoshop

Community Operations Newsletter - Jan 2009

NVIDIA Speak Visual Contest Winners

Vector Week: Jan 24 - 30

Resourcefully Yours /Weekly Gems/10/

Inspire Your Heart with Art Day Feature

Stock and Awe 20

Rewind! Daily Deviations January 28-30th

Deviant's Short Story Published

Photography>APN---Professional Quality!

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Deviousness Award - February 2009

Let Unknown Be Known: January

Seniority Announcements - February 2009

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tradART: On the Streets | February 2009

Forums for Dummies

You

Is there something that you want me to promote? Send me a note and I'll add the link here. I'll most likely feature it unless it's inappropriate or irrelevant to the community. I do reserve the right to decline, but please don't be shy.

Stamps

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Contest & Other Things

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 29, 2009, 5:46 PM

Contest

`2dazed is holding a contest for the deviantART Related gallery. The news article is here and the journal entry is here. Check it out! If you decide to enter the contest, which I hope you'll do, keep tabs on the journal. I'll be judging as well. ;)

Community Relations

I thought I'd update in case you all were wondering what I've been up to!

I've featured two Daily Deviations already!

I started a collection for them here. Please keep the suggestions coming! The guidelines are on my profile under my deviantID.

What am I up to next? I have some ideas. If you have any of your own, please feel free to note them to me (don't comment here because they might get lost). !DCZed presented to me the idea of holding a trivia night in the chat, which is something I would love to do in the future. It would involve prizes! Also, I'm going to be working on a journal layout to keep everyone updated on news and contests around the site. If there is anything you'd like me to promote, please note me. However, I reserve the right to decline the request if it's inappropriate or something.

I've been handling miscats. The Browser Scripts & Extensions category is looking a lot cleaner now. I started there. If you see a miscat, please don't comment on the deviation asking the artist to move it. Simply report it and move on. Even if your intentions are good, those comments tend to inspire a lot of drama which is unnecessary.

I'm not sure that I've said all I wanted to say. There are so many things going on in my head right now! I'm still settling in, but I'm having a good time. My message centre is in chaos; I'm working on fixing that!

News

Forums for Dummies

John Updike dead at 76

Official Contest – What Makes You Smile?

Featured Guest Chat Event With ^Cedarseed

Community Relations Newsletter - January 2009

Inspire Your Heart with Art

deviantART Related Features