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First of all, I want to apologize. I said that I was going to post a big journal entry and then I didn't. I hate to make excuses, but it really has been difficult.
I made some commitments here and I didn't follow through with them. I feel bad about that. I hope those individuals can forgive me. There was a contest I meant to help with and never did, and I haven't been posting the Angels with Wings winners every week like I should; I haven't posted any at all. I won
myself thanks to the wonderful ~EndlessVox
I miss you all and I want to resume my activity here. I'm working on it. It won't always been like this. I've adjusted to work very well. I sincerely like my job. There are some little things that bother me there, but upon reflection I realized that I'm very lucky, and especially to be in such a place during a recession of all times. As far as I know they have no desire to let me go. It's stable. The hours are good and things could be much, much worse.
I can't remember the last time I checked the e-mail address that I have posted on my profile here. I have a more personal account that I check way more often. I don't want to post it publicly, and I won't share it with people I'm not familiar with. If you want it, sent me a note. Just don't share it. ♥
There are a lot of notes I have yet to respond to. I don't mean to be rude and I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose, but I promise I'll get to them soon.
I'll let you all know what's going on. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, though. I'm fine, or I will be eventually.
For a while now my grandparents have been getting divorced. I won't say why because it's their own personal business, but for a time it was a war zone here. It's still stressful because I never hear the end of it. My grandpa moved out, however, and it's a bit quieter now. Forty-two years of marriage went down for no good reason. My only sentiment is that if you love someone, you should show it. In a relationship, love is no good if you don't constantly express it. It costs absolutely no money to do that.
As for the worst, Kobe has been put down. I don't want to go into too much detail about it since it happened on Friday and I still haven't accepted it. He wasn't ill or too old. He was perfectly healthy but had a bad temperament. The sad thing is that he loved me even if he struck out at other people, but I couldn't keep him anymore. I'm going leave the blame and guilt and everything else out of it and just say that I miss him, and I would do anything to have him back, even if it made me completely alone because other people were afraid of him.
A Little Positivity
I posted new features. They were all in my inbox and made me smile.
I want to know how you all are doing. That would be the best anyone could do for me right now. Save the 'I'm sorry' comments and just tell me what's new with yourselves. I also want to know what has been going on here! I'm way out of the loop at this point. :
I have a couple of positive things. It's Mother's Day today (at least in Canada I know it is). Happy Mother's Day to all of you mothers! I wish you all the best and especially to my own mother who I'm lucky to have. And she's all mine, mwahaha! Jen was adopted and isn't deserving (I'm kidding, she wasn't adopted). :0
I'm reading Dragonwyck
by Anya Seton right now. It's a beautiful story. The film adaptation stars Gene Tierney as Miranda and Vincent Price as Nicholas. I'm very, very excited to watch it. Hopefully I can wait until I finish the book, but maybe not. :
I got a new macro lens. My step-dad gave it to me. It's not new, but it's in excellent shape and it works. It says "CANON MACRO LENS EF 100mm 1:2.8 USM". I think that's a good one, but I don't know anything about macro lenses. I noticed that it's hard to get the right aperture. Should I be using a high F number or low F number for things up close? It's nice timing because soon there will be flowers and bugs and I'll be able to use it more. I just need a better flash for it. Any recommendations? Also, are macro rails and extension tubes any good to have? I'm going to make a trip to the camera store at some point. It's just on the other side of the city, so I'm taking my time getting there.
I've been watching The IT Crowd. I finished all three seasons and it's brilliant. I'm also working on The Mighty Boosh. I love that too. I love the amount of awkwardness in British comedy. Most of the stuff in North America doesn't even come close.
Remember I want to hear about you guys! I hope you all have a wonderful week. I think next Monday is a holiday, but I could be wrong.